Good Planning

I like to think that I am a good planner. When I undertake things, I try to consider everything and make a detailed plan of what I want to accomplish. I consider the costs, obstacles, and even potential problems so that there will be few or no surprises. I think that the reason why I pay attention to even the smallest detail is because I want things to go smoothly without any anxiety.

There are several things wrong with this mindset. First, I cannot possibly imagine every possible predicament. Secondly, even if I were able to anticipate every impasse, I many not have the power or resources to do anything about it. Finally, no matter how well things go, I will probably still be filled with stress. The reason for being tense is because no matter how well things fall into place, there is still the uncertainty that everything will not go well.

This is really a control issue. It’s a matter of trust. If I want to be the master planner and be in control, there will always be a lot of tension. If I want relief, I should surrender my role as Commander-in-Chief and hand back the throne to its rightful owner and ruler. I need to entrust God to do what He does best.

No wonder the Psalmist tell us, “…Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain” (Psalms 127:1). James also reminds us to confess “If it is the LORD’S will, we will live and do this or that” (James 4:15).

Perhaps someday I will learn to pray whole heartedly, “Not my will, but Thine be done.” Until then, the battle rages on.